When in doubt, go without. You'll need more information before you decide if it is right for you.
A river may seem calm on the surface, but deep beneath it can be moving and turbulent. People have underestimated your calm exterior, and they have not realised that beneath it all you are very active and very aware of what is going on around you. They may get a very sudden surprise when they realise that you know what has been happening all along and that they have not been able to fool you.
All of the people who have helped you along the way are a part of your success. Be thankful.