This is an important time for in-depth analysis and attention to detail.
What started out as a small spark of hope is quickly turning into a promising flame. You're doing a good job of concealing your true feelings from friends and colleagues, as you don't want them to know just how much you'd like this to happen. In fact, you're starting to enjoy the tantalising tension that this new desire brings. While you don't know if the result will be as great as you have anticipated, it shows that you have a strong desire to spice up your life at this time. How else might you do that? What other aspects of your life could do with a spicy boost?
Choice is a part of life. You can't have everything. Sometimes you just have to choose.