What you want and what you need may be two different things today.
It's perfectly okay to ask for help. There's no shame in needing support or advice. Isolating yourself and carrying this burden alone is going to put a strain on parts of your life, and your emotional wellbeing, that are already under a lot of pressure. Seek help and share this burden with a trusted person or professional.
Distractions don't just steal your time, they steal your focus. If you can minimise distractions, you'll be more productive.